April Blogging Challenge Day 19 (Discuss your first love)

Discuss your first love.

To be honest, the "first love" was puppy love and nothing more than that. It was definitely not a deep bond or anything. We generally hung out in the park near my place and kissed. That is about it. We went to a Saturday double feature at the cinema now and then if I recall.

But the "first love" that I at least thought was a deep bond (adult love), turned out to be a woman who was abusive and manipulative and controlling trying to hook me. She moved in and all the sudden was a different person. It was not good at all. She was verbally abusive as hell. The next two tries ended up the exact same way and I figured that I should not even bother after that, as I obviously am going to keep attracting crazy people who want to control me and be a dick all day long.

So I guess in the end, I have had no "real love" to speak of in the romantic sense of the term. I wish I did to be honest, I would enjoy that a lot - someone to spend the rest of my days with - but just NO, I'm not trying again after that hellish crap 3 different times in 4 years.

I envy what my parents had for love. They where deeply in love with each other the entire time. It lasted over 3 decades, then Dad died and Mom never wanted to have another man after him. I do wish she did get in with another man, and maybe she would have been more happy. But oh well.



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