Dave Nicholson

 

A letter to someone, anyone. I'm not going to use their actual name. Dead Jen. It's been a while since I wrote you. I just wanted to let you know that my arthritis is much worse now and it seems my health in general is declining. My panic attacks are also getting worse, and it really sucks. I hope Bill and the kids are doing good and you found a job by now. This is a hard time to be looking for work I have to say. I'd hate to try and find work myself, as I've been unemployed for over 25 years and at the age of 58, It's unlikely that anyone would be interested in employing me. I hope Bill is still with the bank, it seems a very good job to have. I have to say, I miss my family a lot these days. I have been feeling alone, and you are so lucky to have family to be with I think. Keep up the good fight, and blessings be with you guys.

Put your music on shuffle and post the first ten songs. 1. I Like It Heavy • Halestorm 2. A Little Bit Off • Five Finger Death Punch 3. Twisted Transistor • Korn 4. I Don't Wanna Stop • Ozzy Osbourne 5. Sweet Dreams (Are Made Of This) • Marilyn Manson 6. Adrenalize • In This Moment 7. When Worlds Collide • Powerman 5000 8. Sail • AWOLNATION 9. Welcome To The Fold • Filter 10. Sex Metal Barbie • In This Moment

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What three lessons do you think children need to learn? Don't pretend to be someone or something you are not in life. The best thing for you emotionally is to just be yourself. It can be tough to find who you really are inside with all that is happening around you and to you, but it's well worth the effort to form a true self identity. The pressure of faking it is too great and leads to a lot of stress and fear. You keep thinking, "what if they find out?" It's not worth it. Be good to everyone, not just some. Help people when you can and how you can. We are made to do just this, but most of the world has forgotten this and is selfish. You can make a positive difference in a persons life easily. You can also drive them to deep sadness with your actions. In the light of the eternal self, the balance you set is how you live in the afterlife - we create out own punishments. It is also rewarding to help people and to be kind always. It feels good and causes good things...

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Post about three celebrity crushes. To be honest, I haven't had a crush on a celebrity in most of my life. I am kind of sure the last time I did was when I was 12. But I'll try to remember who the hell they where. You have to remember, I was crushing on them in the 1970's when they where still rather young. Lynda Carter who at the time played Wonder Woman on the TV. I had it bad for her if I can remember. There was nothing about her I did not enjoy seeing. The character as well turned my crank, not just how stunningly beautiful she was in my eyes. Nichelle Nichols who played Nyota Uhura on Star Trek the Original Series . I loved that show so darn much as a kid. It was one of my all time favorite shows and her legs where just so good looking. Her voice melted my heart and when she sang, OMG that was heaven. Burt Reynolds who played several characters I really enjoyed in movies in the 1970's and so on. Smokey and the Bandit was a hell of a fun movie in 1977. The sta...

 

Discuss your first love. To be honest, the "first love" was puppy love and nothing more than that. It was definitely not a deep bond or anything. We generally hung out in the park near my place and kissed. That is about it. We went to a Saturday double feature at the cinema now and then if I recall. But the "first love" that I at least thought was a deep bond (adult love), turned out to be a woman who was abusive and manipulative and controlling trying to hook me. She moved in and all the sudden was a different person. It was not good at all. She was verbally abusive as hell. The next two tries ended up the exact same way and I figured that I should not even bother after that, as I obviously am going to keep attracting crazy people who want to control me and be a dick all day long. So I guess in the end, I have had no "real love" to speak of in the romantic sense of the term. I wish I did to be honest, I would enjoy that a lot - someone to spend the rest o...

 

 

 

Post about your zodiac sign, and whether or not it fits you. Scorpio is supposed to be hot headed and I'm very much not. It says are are sexually charged, and I very much am (although not had sex with anyone in like 15 years or so). It seems that the description of Scorpio is about half and half for me. I don't tend to believe in these things, so I am sure it's coincidence at best.

Something that you miss. I miss the ability to feel safe. As a child I felt safe all the time. I had the ability to teach a bully not to mess with me (dad taught me to fight and I was a strong kid). There seemed to be a hell of a lot less danger back then. This could be the fact that they did not really go nuts on the bad things in the news back then, and well, I did not watch the news or read the paper as a kid. We rode our bikes all over the city for hours and hours and nothing would ever happen. Even the way people drove their cars was better in the day - a lot less people running into things back then. I felt loved, and save all of the time. It was idyllic. Sure there where dangers looking back, but I did not really see them, or I felt I could over come them. Now, I have to say I don't feel nearly as safe. I feel there are a lot of dangers out there. People are no longer as nice and crime is way the hell up from the 1970's to now (2025). The world seems on the edge of a glo...

The following films are considered controversial and in most cases are hard to find streaming these days, although I have found a few of them (A Clockwork Orange for example). I have seen all of them and have done a Summarization and provided the IMDB rating and my own rating of the films. Feel free to comment on the films and say if you think the controversy is bullshit or not. The Crying Game (1992) IMDB 7.2 - ME 8 A British soldier (Fergus) is kidnapped by the IRA and ends up being good friends with one of the “volunteers (Jody)”. Things go horribly wrong and Fergus escapes. He then goes to London to find Dil, who was once Jody's lover. Dil knows nothing about the IRA part and the twist at the end is that after falling in love he finds out Dil has a secret that disturbs him. In the day, the ending was shocking to a lot of people. Soul Man (1986) IMDB 5.3 - ME 5 Mark wants to attend Harvard, but his father, despite being rich, refuses to pay for it. To get in Mark decided to ta...

What it means when someone with anxiety says they are tired: ~ Physical symptoms such as cold sweats, heart palpitations, trembling, dizziness and breathing difficulties are causing them pain.  ~ They are tired of having to live with their own mind constantly replaying their worst memories and worries. ~   They are sick of anxiety disrupting their body so they need to pee and poo constantly. ~   They are tired of trying to read other people's minds to guess if they are judging them for being anxious. ~   They are tired of pretending to be okay so their worries don't ruin the mood for others. ~   They no longer want to dissociate all the time as a response to panic attacks. ~   They are tired of their mind picking up on every little sign as a red flag. ~   They often hate themselves for being anxious for literally no reason. ~   They are tired of asking people for validation all the time when they know others find it irritating. ~   They are s...

Bullet Point Your Day. Up and starting my day at 5AM (sometimes 4 sometimes 6). Hit the bathroom and wash up after. Put the coffee on (Moka pot of course). Have cold leftover bean mix from the day before (or pasta depending on what dinner was). Turn on the computer and check my socials on the phone as the PC starts up. Do Instagram daily posts. Check a few sites I do daily. Play with puzzles, or fractals, or do some editing, or typing, depending on what I feel like going. Take my pills at 10 AM. Backups if they need doing. Move to the TV and watch my stuff from YouTube and comment with my phone. Watch some movies or shows, depending on my mood. Noon pills. More TV for some time. Make and eat dinner (I don't eat lunch). Do my socials again. Put on headphones and listen to music from YouTube Music. Might watch more on YouTube. Go to bed about 10PM There is chats and texts randomly through the day.

Post your favorite movies that you never get tired of watching. Phantasm (1976)  IMDB 6.6/10 ME 8/10 The Second Best Exotic Marigold Hotel (2015)  IMDB 6.5/10 ME 9/10 THX 1138 (1973)  IMDB 6.6/10 ME 10/10 Westworld (1973)  IMDB 6.9/10 ME 8/10 Logan's Run (1976)  IMDB 6.8/10 ME 8/10 Forbidden Planet (1956)  IMDB 7.5/10 ME 8/10 The Day the Earth Stood Still (1951)  IMDB 7.7/10 ME 9/10 Falling Down (1993)  IMDB 7.6/10 ME 10/10 Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas (1998)  IMDB 7.5/10 ME 9/10 Reservoir Dogs (1992)  IMDB 8.3/10 ME 9/10

What are you excited about? There is not much for me to get excited about these days at all. I don't go out of town, because I can't afford it. I'm too broken to go to the mall and walk around all day. But I'm a bit excited for warmer weather, so I can sit outside on the patio and enjoy the outdoors. With my knees being as bad as they are now, I probably won't be walking to the park any time soon, so that's out. There is also the 22nd when the last of the Carbon Tax Rebate comes out and I get $200 extra to enjoy. Some of it will go on my credit card so that when I pay it all the way off on the 29th, I will have money left over to order a pizza with my bank card. I'm excited that I can get a bit of foods I don't normally get in with the extra money. I was going to buy pants but the seller has vanished from where I would have ordered them, so that's out as other places they are over $50 each and I'm not going to have money like that ever. So I gue...

1. What is one of the biggest misconceptions people have about individuals living with chronic illness? If you can go out with friends, you're not chronically Ill. 2. Describe a significant way your daily life or routine has been impacted by a chronic illness. It gets in the way of chores. It can be months until I can vacuum for example. 3. What are some of the invisible challenges that people with chronic illnesses often face? Pain that is not expressed the same way normal people express it, we can be in a lot of pain and appear to be fine. But it can severely limit our ability to do normal tasks, or make the tasks dangerous. 4. How has living with a chronic illness changed your perspective on life or your priorities? I used to think I'd be able to do a lot of things in life, now my objective is to just keep functioning On my own. My goals have drastically changed. 5. What role has support (from family, friends, support groups, etc.) played in your journey with chronic il...