A Month of Blogs Day 29 (Your Goals For the Future)

This is a hard one, because the only plan for the future is to try and stay out of a care home. If it comes to needing that, I hope to the Goddess that I qualify for Medical Assistance in Death. I've seen how it is in a place like that, and compounded with a loss of all freedoms, I'm much rather be dead.

Other than staying out of a care home, keep walking, keep doing my stretches, and keep my mind occupied.

There may or may not be a trip in the future, but I'll have to see how life goes before that can happen. If it does, it would be a long held desire to see Yellowknife fulfilled.


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