2022 A Look Back

What can I say, this was a horrible year for almost everyone I know. I was sick and in pain for a lot of the year. I had several big hits to the bank account that left me in the hole all year long and I'm still trying to get out of that hole. I lost several friends and more acquaintances. I fell and messed myself up rather bad, and worse off, lost some of the feeling of safety in my home because of it.

There where good times of course, but nothing stands out as great. The only big saving grace was the Saskatchewan government handing out $500 in November then in December, I got another $500 from the Feds. If it was not for that, to be honest, I don't know if I could have afforded food for January - I for sure would have been scraping by for many months to come.

For a lot of people, not just myself, it was quite possibly the worst year of our lives. I have the ability to pay off the rest of my debts in 2 months, but I'm not certain I want to be left with next to no fun the entire time. I deserve a bit of a break and to be honest, I don't know if I want to do this right now. There is always in 3 more months the ability to do it all then instead of now - pay off my overdraft that is.

I think the worst part of 2022 was crippling anxiety and panic attacks almost every day. To be honest I don't recall it being so bad before. I've always had anxiety from my teens to now, but it was never multiple times a day, everyday kind of event. Yeah, I can function with it happening, because I have no choice, but dang well wish it would go the hell away.

I don't know what 2023 will bring me, but I'm full on sure it won't be an increase in my disability benefits from the Sask government. They seem to have the money for it now, but not the will to help out a lot of people who are suffering because of inflation.

Now that being said, I have to confess I spent literally $108 on myself at the end of December, but this gave me very little for the money. It got me a 26 of vodka, a 26 of whiskey and a 12 pack of fruit flavored low alcohol drinks. But it gave me 4 days of drunken fun - with some of the vodka for next week.

On the upside I was able to replace my TV that had the audio fail on it, and the new one works great. This is a big positive, because I need it for entertainment. I am home alone 6 days a week and have no one to be with and nothing much else to do but watch movies and so on. I do some art on my computer and play puzzles, but I mostly just want the mind candy of TV.

My thoughts are with the families out there, they have it worse, inflation hit them way harder than us single people. So many I have heard about on the edge of losing it all right now and I am deeply saddened by that. To them $500 is by far not enough to fill the deep hole they are in. Homelessness is on the rise and so is drug use, and crime.

To sum it up, 2022 sucked for almost everyone.