Dave Nicholson

Dancing Queen Fernando S.O.S. Mamma Mia Take a Chance on Me Happy New Year Thank You for the Music The Winner Takes It All Ring Ring Super Trouper Eagle Money, Money, Money Voilez-Vous Waterloo Does Your Mother Know Summer Night City Andante, Andante One of Us Name of the Game So Long Intermezzo No. 1 Tiger Head Over Heels Knowing Me Knowing You Nina, Pretty Ballerina When All is Said and Done

Bangarang – Skrillex Kill Everybody – Skrillex Dragula Rob Zombie Breakn’ a Sweat – Skrillex & The Doors Freaks – Timmy Trumpet Make it Bun Dem – Skrillex & Damian Marley You Spin Me round (Like a Record) – Dead or Alive First of the Year (Equinox) – Skrillex Breathe – Prodigy Roc N’ Roll (Will Take You to the Mountain) – Skrillex Heathens – Twenty One Pilots Scary Monsters and Nice Sprites – Skrillex Stressed Out – Twenty One Pilots Purple Lamborghini – Skrillex & Rick Ross Toxicity – System of a Down Try it Out – Skrillex Smooth Criminal – Alien Ant Farm Kyoto – Skrillex Alone – Marshmello Ragga Bomb – Skrillex Turn Down for What – DJ Snake & Lil Jon Ruffneck (Full Flux) – Skrillex Sex and I Know It – LMFAO Ease My Mind – Skrillex Jump Around – House of Pain

Amazing Grace – LeAnne Rimes What’s Up – 4 Non Blondes Over the Rainbow – Israel Kamakawiwo’ole Bridge Over Troubled Water – LeAnn Rimes Angel – Sarah McLachlan The Rose – LeAnn Rimes I Will Always Love You – Whitney Houston How Do I Live – LeAnn Rimes If You Could Read My Mind – Gordon Lightfoot On The Side of Angels – LeAnn Rimes When You Say Nothing At All – Alison Kruss Bring Me To Life – Evanescence Need You Now – Lady Antebellum I Want It That Way – Backstreet Boys From This Moment On – Shania Twain Wherever You Will Go – The Calling Ten Thousand Angels Cried – LeAnne Rimes Grandpa (Tell Me ‘Bout the Good Old Days) – The Judds Love Me Like You Do – Ellie Goulding Unchained Melody – LeAnn Rimes I Don’t Want to Miss a Thing – Aerosmith You’re Still the One – Shania Twain Jesus, Take the Wheel – Carri Underwood Man! I Feel Like a Woman – Shania Twain

Spirit in the Sky – Norman Greenbaum My Sweet Lord – George Harrison Rebel Yell – Billy Idol Gimme Shelter – The Rolling Stones Carry on Wayward Sone – Kansas Patience – Guns N’ Roses You Pint Me Round (Like a Record) – Dead or Alive Night Moves – Bob Seager & the Silver Bullet Band Zombie – The Cranberries Wish You Were Here – Pink Floyd Take on Me – a-ha Paint it, Black – The Rolling Stones Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This) – Eurythmics Sweet Child O’ Mine – Guns N’ Roses Black Betty – Ram Jam What’s Up? – 4 Non Blondes A Rose with No Name – America Africa – Toto Paradise City – Guns N’ Roses Copperhead Road – Steve Earle Have You Seen the Rain – C.C.R. Hold the Line – Toto Rocket Man – Elton John Take Me Home, Country Roads – John Denver

So I'm sitting here with a deep desire to make chili and thinking how I literally can't afford the stuff that goes into it. I mean it's expensive to get the meat and the peppers and so on. By the time I get it all it will be $20 for sure and I just don't have that to spend on myself at the moment - I already spent too much on myself. But... I am reminded of a recent dream I had that I had won $60,000,000 in the lotto Max and got a house with a big ass TV and lots of recliners so I could have movie nights with my friends. Also in this dream house was a large room with a vast amount of Pusheen stuffed toys in it. Then there was a well stocked bar in the TV room with all kinds of top end whisky and bourbon. Seems I have been contaminated with the idea that things make you happy and not yourself making you happy.

So I talked to the lady from the hospital about my case. She said the thing sticking out of the would is normal and what they do sometimes - so that's all cool. Now there is just the matter of a review of what happened to me in day surgery after the procedure.  If you don't know, I was in the Dr. F.H. Wigmore hospital here in Moose Jaw on the morning of June 11, 2019 to get a laparoscopic hernia repair. This is the biggest procedure I've ever had done. In any event, I am quite resistant to pain medication and had NOT told the doctor this ahead of time - so part of it is on me. So after I was taken to a room to get dressed I was unaware of just how much pain I was going to be in when I moved. At this time the nurse or aid (don't know witch) told me to get dressed and open the door when I was done. She then left the room. Well the moment I tried to get up I started to cry out in pain. It was in fact the the worst pain of my entire life. It was level 10 ...

Well that went well NOT. I was hoping to be down a little at least. BUT I was bad AGAIN. This entire year is a wright-off to say the least for the weight loss. I'm up 21.2 lbs in total for the year so far (Week 26). At one shinning moment I was down 150+ lbs now it's 124.6 in total. But there is always tomorrow. I just need to get my head right and stop being impulsive with crap like processed food, chips, pop and ice cream. Back to the struggle I go.

So I had a little fun. I has sushi and whisky. I also ordered a 12 pack of 3mm chains that are 30 inches long. Then I ordered 2 identical pentagram pendants, one for me and one for my friend. The chains that come with these things are always to short for either of us - so thus the chains and I'll have extras if something goes wrong or I find some other shiny thing to get. So because of the fun and the orders I'm down to like $45 left in the back after the rent comes out and my subscriptions are paid for. Oh well, this is life. I was only going to have $100 left over anyway as I owe the other Dave $70 to give to his Mom (she picked up the expensive pain meds for me). So not going to be having much fun this month to say the least. Might put a few things like coffee and fries on the credit card for next month. This will put me a bit short for 2 months not just 1, but at least I'll have cash if I need a cab ride or something. to conclude, I probobly should not ha...

Up at 4:30 am today to take a piddle. I was up all night doing this. Every hour I got up and peed. The smokies I had yesterday did me in I guess. So I just got up and got at it at 4:30 am. At least the last 2 weeks I have been up early and not sleeping till 11am or more. This is the only good side effect from the surgery I had - it reset my sleep pattern. In any event, last night was one of the best sunsets I have seen in years. It was simply amazing. Now it's 7:07 am and I am hungry. I am going to get that last bit of bean mix I did not eat the other day out of the fridge and watch some TV while I eat it. Later I'll cook been mix for the rest of the day. The bean mix (3 meals) is: 2 large cans of beans - 1 large can of diced tomatoes - Italian seasoning to taste - 2 cups of frozen vegetables (still frozen). Mix in a pot and cook till you think it's cone. It's easy to over cook on the stove. I normally do 2 days worth in the slow cooker (2 hours on hi...

Wind of Change – Scorpions House of the Rising Sun – BTO Carry on Wayward Son – Kansas Mr. Crowley – Ozzy Osbourne Dream On – Aerosmith The Sound of Silence – Disturbed In the End – Linkin Park Hurt – Johnny Cash Stairway to Heaven – Led Zeppelin Africa – Toto Psychosocial – Slipknot Nightmare – Avenge Sevenfold Whiskey in the Jar – Metallica The Devil in I – Slipknot Engel – Rammstein Heathens – Twenty-One Pilots

The Devil in I – Slipknot Nightmare – Avenge Sevenfold Rebel Yell – Dope Bodies – Drowning Pool Sex Machine – Dope You’re Going Down – Sick Puppies In the End – Linkin Park Sulfer – Slipknot Killing in the Name – Rage Against the Machine Violent Pornography – System of a Down Dead Memories – Slipknot Psychosocial – Slipknot Down with the Sickness – Disturbed The Red – Chevelle Hail to the King – Avenge Sevenfold Walk – Pantera Dragula – Rob Zombie

MacArthur Park – Richard Harris Wind of Change – Scorpions Carry on Wayward Son – Kansas Dream On – Aerosmith Zombie – The Cranberries Africa – Toto Patience – Guns N’ Roses The Devil in I – Slipknot Another One Bites the Dust – Queen Another Brick in the Wall – Pink Floyd Sweet Child O’ Mine – Guns N’ Roses Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This) – Eurythmics The Unforgiven – Metallica Dragula – Rob Zombie November Rain – Guns N’ Roses Kickstart My Heart – Motley Crue Renegade – Styx Devils Song – Big Pig Venus in Furs – The Velvet Underground In Hell I’ll Be in Good Company – The Dead South You Spin Me Round – Dead or Alive The Sound of Silence – Disturbed B.Y.O.B. – System of a Down Cry Little Sister – Marilyn Manson Numb – Linkin Park The End – The Doors

Twist and Shout – The Beatles Stand by Me – Ben E. King Like a Rolling Stone – Bob Dylan These Boots are Made for Walking – Nancy Sinatra You’ve Got to Hide Your Love Away – The Beatles I’m a Believer – The Monkees For What It’s Worth – Buffalo Springfield Good Vibrations – The Beach Boys Imagine – John Lennon Over the Rainbow – Israel Kamakawiwo’ole San Francisco (Be Sure to Wear Flowers in Your Hair) – Scott McKenzie Cat’s in the Cradle – Harry Chapin Piano Man – Billy Joel Wish You Were Here – Pink Floyd She’s Always a Woman – Billy Joel Let it Be – The Beatles

Radioactive – Kraftwerk The Robots – Kraftwerk The Man Machine – Kraftwerk This Side of the Border – Rational Youth No More and No Less – Rational Youth In Your Eyes – Rational Youth Holiday in Bangkok – Rational Youth Western Man – Rational Youth In the Future – Rational Youth Burn the Night Away – Rational Youth Le Meilleur Des Mondes – Rational Youth To the Goddess Electricity – Rational Youth City of Night – Rational Youth Beware the Fly – Rational Youth Freeze – Rational Youth Close to Nature – Rational Youth

Home Sweet Home – Motley Crue Take on Me – a-ha Simple Man – Lynyrd Skynyrd November Rain – Guns N’ Roses Runnin’ With the Devil – Van Halen 18 And Life – Skid Row Enter Sandman – Metallica Stairway to Heaven – Led Zeppelin Wind of Change – Scorpions Wanted Dead or Alive – Bon Jovi Night Moves – Bob Seger & The Silver Bullet Band High Enough – Damn Yankees Old Time Rock & Roll - Bob Seger & The Silver Bullet Band Sweet Child O’ Mine – Guns N’ Roses Livin’ On A Prayer – Bon Jovi Don’t Know What You Got (Till It’s Gone) – Cinderella Motivation – T.I. Copperhead Road – Steve Earle Hysteria – Def Leppard Paradise City – Guns N’ Roses 6 Foot 7 Foot – Lil Wayne Round and Round – Ratt Rainbow in the Dark – Dio

So normally I have this USB card reader in this USB extension cable. Today instead of plugging the passport drive into the front of the PC I plugged it into the extension. Well it lit the light up, but did not actually see the drive. For a moment I though "how can it be dead, I only use it once a month for 10 minutes". Then I plugged it into the front of the PC and it worked fine. So I'm guessing there is a lot of loss in the cable. It works quite fine for the card reader and none of the thousands of photos I've transferred with it where scrambled. But I guess there is just enough loss to not properly power the drive. I have to say though, it was the lowest priced one on the shelf when I got it one day at Staples. No idea what the brand is even - it does not say on it.

Having my treat day today instead of Thursday, just because. I'm munching into Smokies on a bun with mustard and sriracha. The smokies are Jalapeno and Cheddar. 3 of them seems to be filling me up rather well at the moment. Don't know if I will eat all 12 of the things in 1 day. I do love them. Was going to get sauerkraut with them, but it was just too much. I spent $15 on this total and they where on sale - so not something I normally eat. Still that's less than 1 meal out someplace - and I get to feed 3 or 4 times on it.

I had a laparoscopic hernia repair on June 11, 2019. When I have my follow up I have to mention that when I stand up there is a bump where the repair was done. This is 2 weeks after the surgery that I'm noticing it. I am hoping to God it's not a failure in the repair but some thing that should be there. There is nothing on the other side like that though, so I have to wonder.    Something left in the wound I got no idea what the hell it is or why it's there. I'm thinking perhaps it was holding something inside. It seems to be that dissolving stitch thing they use inside you. It's only a guess though - I got not idea - I don't know much about medical stuff.  A closeup of the bit sticking out of under the staples. The worst looking of the wounds. Just because there is a big ass bruise around it. The others are mostly clear of discoloration and look rather good - hard to tell there was a cut there. Very little scaring will be visible - they did a nic...

Thank GOD I had some donations from friends this month or next month I'd have been flat broke. So at least now I can take a cab if I need it next month. With luck the same stuff that went wrong this month does not happen. This month I had $60 in bad rides and $70 in medication that was not covered by my plan. So I was toasted money wise. I also had a few minor expenses I was not expecting to have. It all added up to me being in the hole (on the credit card). This months Food bill is going to be about $68 and will be left on the card for a month. I should be back to normal  after July. At least I hope I am. I am told as well I'm being sent a bottle of whisky to enjoy. This is a happy thing. I might actually get stupid and get a bottle of my old stand by on Thursday just because. It's $22.13 right now - so it's less than normal and while it's so low I might get one - just to have a bender after all the stuff that went wrong this month. As well this...

Shout at the Devil – Motley Crue Dream On – Aerosmith Dragula – Rob Zombie Kickstart My Heart – Motley Crue For Whom the Bell Tolls – Metallica Whiskey in the Jar – Metallica Dr. Feelgood – Motley Crue Nightrain – Guns N’ Roses Girls, Girls, Girls – Motley Crue Don’t Cry – Guns N’ Roses Wild Side – Motley Crue You Should Be Mine – Guns N’ Roses Smokin’ in the Boys Room – Motley Crue Metal Health (Band Your Head) – Quit Riot Red Hot – Motley Crue Enter Sandman – Metallica Helter Skelter – Motley Crue Runnin’ With the Devil – Van Halen

Against the Wind – Bob Seager & The Silver Bullet Band Dream On – Aerosmith Patience – Guns N’ Roses Carry on Wayward Son – Kansas My Sweet Lord – George Harrison November Rain – Guns N’ Roses Simple Man Lynyrd Skynyrd Knockin’ on Heaven’s Door – Guns N’ Roses Here Without You – 3 Doors Down Ventura Highway – America Night Moves - Bob Seager & The Silver Bullet Band Have You Seen the Rain – C.C.R. Like a Rock - Bob Seager & The Silver Bullet Band Paradise City – Guns N’ Roses Turn the Page - Bob Seager & The Silver Bullet Band Copperhead Road – Steve Earle Still the Same - Bob Seager & The Silver Bullet Band Wanted Dead or Alive – Bon Jovi Paint It Black – The Rolling Stones Sweet Child O’ Mine – Guns N’ Roses Nothing Else Matters – Metallica Lyin’ Eyes – Eagles Mainstreet - Bob Seager & The Silver Bullet Band Midtnight Rider – The Allman Brothers Band Hurt – Johnny Cash

Kind of share my urologist can't find his ass with both hands. Left nut is killing me again. How is it 4 different doctors in this town can't find a 2.5 mm cyst? He knows it's there he saw the fucking report from the ultrasound. Comes off saying he doesn't know why its hurting, says its stress related. So I have to live with this pain for the rest of my life because I live in a city full of incompetent doctors. Trust me, you can ask other people here what they think of the doctors. Meanwhile, this hurts so bad it's making me nauseous. Jesus!

If I get 10 more good years I will be lucky. I'm hoping to drop dead just when I'm 64 so I don't have to bother with the vast amount of effort it will take to move from Sask disability to the federal old age system and an entirely new system of drug and medical coverage. I'm almost a plant now, can't imagine at 65 doing all that paperwork. Then again a very close friend and I have talked about after "10 good years" we could just check out in a blaze of glory. Ya know get drunk and stoned for days then just take too much and be found a by a maid in a motel or something. All jokes aside (I know that was an evil one), if I ever hear the words "cancer or dementia" I'm freaking out of here. No joke - just out of here. Sure I'll fight cancer if I have a chance, but if it's stage 4 and no hope - off I go into the gentle night. I only wish that the right to assisted suicide here in Canada was expanded to a directive that one co...

I've been blocked on Facebook for a lot of reasons. Here are some of them: • Telling someone sexual assault is not a joke. • Using the "F word" too much - this came from someone who constantly posted photos of her sex toys. • Because "I'm starting to like you more than my husband so I have to block you". • Really a LOT of people because I think Trump is the worst man for the job. • For voting Liberal in the Saskatchewan and federal elections. • For saying "who cares, you knew what I meant" when someone tried to correct my spelling. • For posting too many photos. • For sharing a persons PUBLIC post. • For being openly pansexual and/or fluid gender. • For liking pineapple on a pizza. • For insisting there is proof the world round, not flat. • For liking cats. • For collecting Pusheen toys and posting photos of them. • For saying everyone should have the same rights, not special rights (they to...

 Paint splatter.  ER parking lot at the Moose Jaw hospital.  Typical cloudy day.  Me sitting in the dark about to start reading. My gel-pen don't work to well, but it's got Pusheen on it.

Still dealing with the aftermath of my surgery. I still maintain I got nothing for pain management when I was in the hospital. If they did give me any, it was enough for a small child only, and not for a very large adult.  When I was told to get dressed to go home (the same day) I was crying out in pain every time I moved. The effort to get dressed and into the van was monumental. I've looked back at the video I posted the same day - I was shaking and white the bandage you see below.  It's been 11 days and I'm still in a bit of pain. I've had 3 other surgery's in the past and I have not needed pain management after any of them - just the same day of the operation did I need something. So obviously this was a LOT bigger deal than before. I don't know what the hell it is with the hospital in Moose Jaw (and doctors) not wanting to give you pain meds that actually kill pain, but it's extremely common. Many people I know have ha...