Almost Christmas Day - Woot

2 hours and 15 minutes and it's Christmas day. Since Mom died I have not been into it at all and felt very alone and sad for Christmas. This year however nothing is going to stop me from enjoying the hell out of it.

I have in full force the spirit of Christmas in my heart. No I don't mean the traditional celebration of Christ being born and all that, but the more generic family holiday filled with the love of friends and family.

Sure I don't have family and I won't be going to other peoples places, but I have been show how loved I am by my friends in real life as it where and online. I feel deeply happy for the holiday and will rejoice in the day.

It won't be super fancy, just me and some food I love in front of the TV. I have several movies lined up on Netflix to watch. Normally I'm all into the horror films on Christmas but this year it's a mixed bag to say the least.

I'll be filling up on ham, cabbage rolls, corn, old cheddar and 4 kinds of pickles. There will be leftover for a late night feed as well. I got into the ham today as well and it was good. There should be enough for at least 1 more meal boxing day. So 5 good feeds on it for $10 is not bad to me.

This is the first year in my entire life there is no candy, cookies, chocolates or other junk food in the place to munch on. Normally there are an assortment of candy, chocolates, nuts and chips that get munched on all day long. Not doing that this year by choice.

I was going to break down today and get chips but they jacked the price up by 50% for the holidays on the ones I wanted, so no thanks. As well I don't want another kind, just there ones. Perhaps on Friday when the new sales come out they will be back to $1 each like they used to be.

In any event I had good times with 2 groups of friends and a lot of back and forth with online friends who had lots of nice things to share.

I am however saddened at how many people are in a lot of physical and emotional pain right now. I wish I could make it better so they could enjoy the time like I'm doing, but I can't. So many of us forget that there are a great deal of people out there who suffer threw the holidays and don't enjoy them at all. So be extra thankful this year if your not one of them.

I've been in medium pain all week and it's not getting in my way - I won't let it. There are times I can push past the pain to enjoy life and times I need to just lay in bed a lot - this is the time where I can push past it thank God. For those who can't I offer up a positive thoughts of comfort in a vain hope that it will help (knowing it never does).

Merry Christmas and have a happy day.

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  1. 54shadowDecember 25, 2017 at 4:35 AM

    It still amazes me how an unseen hand, makes our paths cross out of all the millions of people on the blogesphere, it zeros in on a few that really make a difference in each others lives. Yes, a few of those friendships can go sour, but, it will boil down to a core of true, kindred spirits, that is the "awe" in the whole mix if things.

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