Dave Nicholson

I have seen the sun come up threw tired eye. I have wanted the night to never come again. I have longed for all that is lost and all that will never be. But the light will always shine.

This are very good in my opinion. First three are pure visual and imagery. Last 2 are longer. The Backwater Gospel https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vVkDrIacHJM Path of Hate (BTW the animators initials are show in this.) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AjXr9Nj5ZbI Poilus https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cwn3Ru0o8Io State Zero https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QgPMyvZMBY0 Year Six https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MPUDWpD_8OU

It feels like the kiss of death and I don't care as I am ready for the long dark night. The comfort of the endless time with those who have gone before me beckons. This world of our is slowly becoming more and more like pain for the sake of pain. I wish for peace and there is only moments not days. Yet I feel the grip of those around me holding me to this ground. To stay or to pass is the question and it is the most important one. I desire the comfort of a lost loved ones embrace. But for now I hold to this day and to the people I love on this side. I will not go to the night, but will stay for this day. Soon enough I will sleep, but for now I will wake.

Years ago another person and I where painting in the basement of a building. There was literally no one else in the building but the owner. Well he took off to do some stuff and left us. We started to sing this punk song. Well we both stopped when we herd someone yell "shut the fuck up". Well no one was there but us. We both heard it though. It was also NOT the voice of the guy who owned the building. Never did figure it out. Years later I found out that a person who used to own the place dropped dead in the basement. Got to wonder.

Ok this was dinner, it will be dinner tomorrow. As well, it was dinner yesterday. LOL. It's a chicken breast that has been baked in the oven and then cooked up with a can of beans and a pile of mixed veggies. I put in a splash or 10 of extra hot red peeper sauce (generic brand). This ends up giving me dinner and a snack for later on at night. It seems if I don't eat about 45 min before bed, I won't sleep worth a darn. The key here is that time span. If I eat to close to bed time I will have an upset tummy and again not sleep. Well the last 2 days I have slept worth a crap anyway, but that is another story. Well time to put some more chicken in the fridge to thaw out over night. This is of course claimed to be a bad idea that leads to poisoning. I have done it for most of my life and not had a problem. Just eat it the next day and not let it sit for 2 weeks...

God I miss going for coffee almost every day. But it gives me way more time to watch vlogs and play on Facebook. I guess that is a good thing... Thing is, when I did go out often for coffee it was just to not be alone. It's not like the conversation flowed and was fun for the both of us. That is what I don't understand in retrospect. That I did not fully realize what was happening here. We would talk for two or three hours sometimes about his stuff - his life. But when I had something I thought important enough to share, he would literally ignore what I was saying and just start talking about his own life again. At least once a week for a dozen years the topic of how his ex was controlling and manipulative and hurt him so bad by leaving him. The reality that he was describing himself, not his ex seemed to escape me on the top level. I did however realize deep inside that he was talking about himself. But for the sake of company, I would play the game and yet agai...

Carlos of the Night - A Short Story David S. Nicholson April 25, 2017 When people came to visit, him he was a mild-mannered person who verged on the tragic. Sitting in his wheel chair he attracted pity from his friends and family. They never know what he was actually about, until that one night when he got busted. In reality he had no need for this wheel chair and was able bodied. As well he spent most of his alone time watching others every move. That is to say, he followed them on social media and every photo, video and line of text the posted he gobbled up in his insane need to know if they were talking about him. He was not alone in his task. He had help. There was a woman that followed him like he was a man that could not be resisted. She did his every beckon call. She also followed every move that was made by the ones he stocked. Never once did she question or realize that they had no desire or care for what he was up to. Nor did they speak of him. In fact, he wa...

So about 25 years ago, I had a run-in with this fellow out at a truck stop we used to hang out at. Well he was a dick every time I saw him for a couple of years and I do believe he was going out of his way to be places I was at. The rub here is, he assaulted me at the same truck stop right in front of a video surveillance camera. Instead of handing him his ass, I decided to let the cops handle it. Sure it was just a shove and some harsh words, but I had enough of this fellow at this point. So I go to the cops and tell them my story. My first clue that this was going to go no where was when the cop said, "well I know him and I don't think he would do that". Sigh. So three months later I get a call from some other cop saying "we are dropping the case for lack of evidence ". I asked what about the video tape? He had no idea what I was talking about. Well the place like many others had a 24 hour tape and at the end it just started to record over i...

And this is why we DON'T dry shave people... DANG... Think about it, this is a very good razor. If I used a Bic they would be finding my dead body in the morning... But you do get a really close shave LOL. BTW you can get a rash or an infection from doing this. Also a good idea to not share a razor with anyone. When a barber gives you a shave the razor is cleaned in a special fluid. I have been shaved with a straight razor 3 times in my life. It was the 3 best shaves I ever had. But there is no way in hell I have the ability to not harm myself using one, so I won't. My one friend shaves EVERYTHING with his. That is something I would not even think of doing. Not getting anything that easy to slice with by my unit...

Well still got 34 rolls of butt paper left over and it's near the end of the month. I got this stuff 2 months ago. It was on super sale, at about 30% of the normal price. So I done got a hole lot of it. Not only that I got 90 Airmiles out of the deal. Here is the ticket. I have never in my life (when buying my own) payed full price for any kind of paper product. I'm still using a bunch of printer paper I got years ago at a liquidation sale. As well there are still 7 rolls of paper towel to the far right of this shot. When I got that I got 2 6 packs of it. It lasts me a long time so I won't be needing any for some time yet. As for the butt paper, I will be carried threw all of next month and then some. Any who... I'm off to lay in bed and NOT sleep now... Later...

1 Lagertha - Born To Be Your Queen 2 Two Steps From Hell - Glackheart 3 Last Of The Wilds - Nightwish 4 Nox Arcana - Night of the Wolf 5 Nox Arcana - Scarborough Fair 6 Amethystium - Strangely Beautiful 7 Flaer Smin - Wish U Were Here 8 Enigma - I Love You , I´ll Kill You 9 Anggun - Snow On The Sahara 10 Enigma - Indian Chanting

1 Sixfingerz - Law of Nature 2 CloZee - Koto 3 Tribe Society - Kings 4 Oh Be Clever - River 5 A.T.C.R - Burn Your Village To The Ground (Neon Natives Remix) 6 Brother Dege - Crazy Motherfucker 7 Stephen - Sincerely 8 Conner Youngblood - The Warpath 9 Ryder - Pretty Little Gangster 10 Cruel Youth - Hatefuck

1 So alive - Love and Rockets 2 The Cult - She Sells Sanctuary 3 The Breeders - Cannonball 4 Monster Magnet - Spacelord 5 Whale - Hobo Humpin Slobo Babe 6 Danzig - Mother 7 Rob Zombie - Dragula 8 Rammstein - Du Hast 9 Lost Dog street band - I went down to Georgia 10 The Staves - Tired As Fuck

1 Van Canto - Black Wings Of Hate https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6mlYQChnyIo 2 Gorillaz - Feel Good Inc. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HyHNuVaZJ-k 3 Iron Maiden - Run To The Hills https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZhJfAr-F3AA 4 Skrillex & The Doors - Breakn' A Sweat https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BUULBlDcju4 5 Nicky Romero - Toulouse https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KrVC5dm5fFc 6 Awolnation - Sail https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JaAWdljhD5o 7 The Verve - Bitter Sweet Symphony https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1lyu1KKwC74 8 Sad Kermil - Hurt https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=57ta7mkgrOU 9 Toto - Africa https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FTQbiNvZqaY 10 Disturbed - The Sound Of Silence https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u9Dg-g7t2l4

Random photo play from the other day. Just looking back on it now my brain is saying "No kitten, that is your moms coffee". Strange how we can look at something days later and see something completely different or have it spark a thought that it did not originally spark. I looked at a photo the other day I have on my cabinet. It's a photo i took a long time ago with a $20 35mm camera. It's a church that is no longer there. The church where my mother used to go as a child. It was a historic site as well and was lost to age. No one took care of it and it fell down. Anyway, I think of mom most of the time when I see it. But this time I thought about my uncle who died before I was born. Someone I obviously never met. He was a whisky runner in the 1930's and 1940's. He was much older than mom BTW. For some reason I just got thinking "I wonder if he went there or just passed on going to church"? Anyway, I need a nap even though it's ...

This is me at least once a week. Wake up in the morning and wonder where the heck that came from. I always end up getting some mark on me some place. This one is the size of my fist and is on my leg. Most of the time they are on my leg. I always have no idea where they came from. One day I woke up and had a dinner plate sized one on my tummy off to the left side. Now how the hell does this happen in my sleep. I can see a small one popping up now and then, but you would thing something 6 inches across would wake you up... NOPE. I don't bruise easy normally, so I don't know where it comes from. Then again I have the tenancy to not notice pain until it gets to a certain level. So you know... I could have damaged myself a bit and not noticed...

 Woot got my nice new cross. It was $8  And having a cup of coffee  Fecking speakers died so headphones from now on as I am NOT spending money on new speaks that I will only use twice a week.  I get really bored and change my desktop wallpaper often. 99% of the time it's something I made myself.  And siting here in the reading room waiting for the washer to finish. The poor thing sounds like it's going to die, but I'm told it's the way it should sound...  Evidently this was carved by someone who used to live here many years ago. The poor thing has not been kept up and has cracked to the point it is almost going to fall apart. It's to hold magazines.  Well there is the laundry folder. The dang dryer I use - is one I always use. But it has this loud buzzer that I am sure you can hear in the afterlife. It never fails to scare the shit out of me. I know it's coming but it's so loud I jump.  And it's all stuffed...

OK this was the day I went to the doctor to get my eyes looked it. They hurt kind of a lot and I have no clue what he told me it was. My memory can be toast at times. Anyway he gave me some ointment to out in my eyes. This is actually harder than it sounds. You see I have a fear of getting anything close to my eyes. This makes it almost impossible for me to do this. I have to hold the lower lid open with my finger then put some of the burning hell ointment in. This soon spreads to the entire eye and then my brain is telling be "DON'T put that shit in your other eye". But being that I need to get it in there, in it goes. By this time I have wasted some of the ointment of course. But five days later I only have one more treatment to go. Thank god there is more in the tube than I need. They must know that 1/4 of it will end up on your face and not in your eye. BTW it burns like getting lemon juice in your eyes for about 10 minutes then the feeling goes awa...

Well this is my new summer jacket. It was $32 and since I ordered it with something else, shipping was free. I ordered one that was about $44 and it was defective, so I took it back to their store and got a refund. This one came up from the USA and fits a bit big. I could have ordered a size down and been happy with it. In fact since I continue to lose weight, I more than likely should have ordered a size down. Anyway it's a windbreaker with that kind of mesh inside that they often have. It's also very light and will compress down to fit in a glove box. It's also got a hood and is water resistant. So it will be good on rainy days. The pockets zip up but will never be zipped up. The only drawback from the last one I had was I am sure this one won't live over 25 years LOL. Yes I don't think I had any clothing item that lasted even close to as long as the last one did. I actually felt bad tossing it out. It was not worth fixing though... I think I should have ordere...

Dinner was and will be tomorrow, Cajun chicken (roasted in my rusty roaster LOL) and a mix of beans and pasta with veggies. I made 2 containers of the pasta stuff to get rid of the rest of this low carb pasta I had. It has a chili sauce on it. The chicken is simply roasted with extra hot Cajun sauce on it. Once you get used to having very little variety in your eating this entire save money and lose weight thing gets a lot more easy LOL.

  The overlay for this and the one bellow is the tile I posted in the Roaster Blog. It was set to "overlay".

Well this is my roaster I got last spring. That makes it 1 year old. It's freaking rusting. OK this is the same brand that I got 20 years ago and it lasted me 20 years. Not this one... Thing is I need a new soup pot. The last 2 I got where some $20 thing from wally world and they lasted a year and a half or two years. I was thinking of getting one from the same company as the roaster. After all I thought it was a long lived brand. Well after noticing how dang toast the roaster is already, I am not going to spend $48 on a soup pot from them. I also do not have the money to be spending $90 or more on one that will actually last me 20 years. So, it's down to the $20 crappy one that will last a short time and toss it out. Looks like I need a new roaster as well. I will try to find some cheep ass thing - also a smaller one than this one. I don't cook roasts anymore and cooking a chicken breast or two in this big thing is pointless. The only thing there is, I have ...

In case you are wondering, that is not a leg or an arm - it's part of a chair in the reading room LOL. There are a lot of times we miss things. We walk past something interesting of that is worthy of our attention. Even the best photographer in the world has done this. For the most part when I take a photo it's something people will look at and not know it's there. Something that they miss altogether. I have noticed that personally I tend to like the photos of people who take photos of every day things or people. The shots make things stand out that we don't see as we are over exposed to them. I follow a few photographers on the net on several sites and enjoy their work for just this reason. They see things that we miss. The best thing is, if your average person goes out looking to do just this - they will often fail. I can't tell you what attracts me to the things I take photos of, all I know is if I go looking for it I will not see it. It just h...

Photo has nothing to do with this, I just want to show off my new cross. OK we have reached that stage where if I open the window it gets cold in here. If I leave the window closed it gets very hot in here. It's 17C outside right now. I have no idea why it gets so hot in here when the sun shines on my side of the building, but most of the buildings as old as this one are about the same for that. I have been in many that did exactly the same. Being that it's only 17 out there and it's got the temp in here to the low 30's (in c that is hot), I can only imagine how dang hot it's going to be when it is summer and the temp outside is actually 30. This is of course why I got that air conditioner. I want to thank once again, all the people who donated. I also felt the love that they donated the money so quickly, as it was a matter of 2 or 3 hours and I had the money in place. That reminds me, I need to get $30 out to pay for the installation and taking o...

Well my fancy speakers just blew up. The amp went. So they make almost no sound at all. Will be tossing them out and NOT replacing them. I use the headphones 90% of the time anyway. I might get one of them USB to Blue Tooth things and plug it in the back and start using the better blue tooth headphones. Or maybe not. The wired ones still work fine.

1 Utah saints - Something good 2 Prodigy - Everybody In The Place 3 Whale - Hobo Humpin Slobo Babe 4 Altern 8 - E-Vapor-8 5 Beastie Boys - Sabotage 6 Cypress Hill - Insane In The Brain 7 M.A.R.R.S - Pump Up The Volume 8 House Of Pain - Jump Around 9 Kris Kross - Jump 10 Right Said Fred - I`m Too Sexy

1 Company B - Fascinated 2 Animotion - Obsession 3 Missing Persons - Words 4 Gary Numan - Cars 5 Tubeway Army - Are 'friends' electric? 6 Kraftwerk - The Robots 7 Buggles - Video Killed the Radio Star 8 Talking Heads - Once In A Lifetime 9 Elvis Costello - Beautiful 10 Devo - (I Can't Get No) Satisfaction

1 Soft Cell Sex Dwarf 2 Led Zeppelin - The Lemon Song 3 Marvin Gaye - Sexual Healing 4 George Micheal - I Want Your Sex 5 Pointer Sisters - Slow Hand 6 Franky Goes To Hollywood - Relax 7 Paul Lekakis - Boom, Boom, Boom 8 Bob Seger - Horizontal Bop 9 Sade - Sweetest Taboo 10 Tone-Loc - Wild Thing

1 The Animals - House Of The Rising Sun (1964) 2 Boston- More than A Feeling (1976) 3 Kansas - Carry on Wayward Son (1976) 4 Kansas - Dust In The Wind (1977) 5 Ram Jam - Black Betty (1977) 6 Journey - Dont Stop Believing (1981) 7 Phill Collins - In The Air Tonight (1981) 8 Men Without Hats - Safety Dance (1982) 9 Toto - Africa (1982) 10 Cyndi Lauper - Time After Time (1983)

So I'm standing there with this headache and thinking why won't it give me a second pill? So I shake it several times and nothing is coming out. Well all the sudden POOF a bunch come out. Why the hell is this the norm for getting pills out of the bottle and why does the first one always come out easy? I have have over the years seen a large sample of people trying to get headache pills out of the bottle and to the same result LOL. BTW why the hell do they have a Z on them? It's not like it's a sleep aid. Well OK for people like Mom they where. But she was like 90 lbs. Should be a little relief of some guy holding their head on it. That would work better for me. The Z just confuses the hell out of me. I ain't no pill scientist after all. This reminds me of a woman that I used to know that in the 1940's worked as a "dispenser" in a northern reserve. I have no idea if the people where this uneducated or the government was just kind of racist at the...

 This is a poor mans veggie chili. It's VERY hot with scorpion pepper flakes in it. Basically I tossed 2 cans of baked beans in the slow cooker and added in the scorpion pepper flakes and mixed veggies. Just put it on high and leave it for 3 hours. It made 3 rather filling meals. I still have 2 of them left to eat.  This is the 3 portions of veggie chili and the rest of the pasta you see below. The pasta was a side dish for some chicken twice and is now gone. Oh and the chicken I had the next day is in the shot as well. Just kind of hit it with some hot sauce. OK this is chili sauce pasta. Poor mans style. It's pasta with mixed veggies and discount BBQ sauce with some hot red chili mix added to it. Chili makes everything more better like :)

1 WKRP in Cincinnati Theme 2 Cheers Theme 3 Welcome Back Kotter Theme 4 Sanford and Son - Theme 5 Barney Miller Theme 6 Night Court Theme 7 Taxi Theme 8 Hill Street Blues Theme 9 The Streets of San Francisco Theme 10 S.W.A.T. Theme