Dave Nicholson

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 Flavored olive oil and balsamic vinegar. Very spicy nuts. BBQ Sauce with a hat.  Some of the best coffee I ever had. Mailed to me by a great friend.  Christmas Dinner. Ham, Cabbage Rolls, Veggies, Spud Paddies and Gibsons 12 year old Blended Whiskey.  Left over cabbage rolls. Not getting them again - too much Rosemarie. From now on I stick to Co-Op ones - they ROCK.  Messy.  Very Messy.  Pasta (no glutton), Veggies, Spud Paddy, Fish Sticks.  Coffee no Flash.  This is GOOD coffee.  No idea Why.  Thanks to the owner of the building for the Cookies :) They where very good. Coffee with Flash.

Got to love when people come home after midnight and talk very loud in the halls. After all ther are the only important person alive. I have to wonder is they are raised in a barn. Not to mention the drama of slamming doors at 3am and yelling at you now ex bf. then to replace him the next day. Lacking in morals I have to say. This is why I say I will never have a quiet day. Someone has to be singing in the bath or talking to the voices. Or there has to be after bar banter and door slams. Just to keep it all interesting I guess. Oh for the days of the mobal home park. It was always quiet there. No parties. No drunk tards. No fights. No blowing horns. No trucks docking at 2am. I miss that. I also miss everyone liking and respecting each other. Those days are lost now.

01 ZZ Top - Legs 02 ZZ Top - Tush 03 ZZ Top - La Grange 04 ZZ Top - Brown Sugar 05 John Fogerty - Centerfield 06 John fogerty - Rock and roll girls 07 John fogerty - Hot Rod Heart 08 Commander Cody - Hot Rod Lincoln 09 Beach Boys - Little Deuce Coupe 10 Jan And Dean - Deadman's Curve 11 Steve Earle - Copperhead Road 12 David Allan Coe - The Ride 13 Waylon Jennings - I`ve Always Been Crazy 14 Waylon Jennings - Good Hearted Woman 15 Waylon Jennings - Good Ol' Boys 16 The Soggy Bottom Boys - I Am A Man Of Constant Sorrow 17 The Soggy Bottom Boys - Cry,Cry,Cry 18 The Soggy Bottom Boys - Boys Mean Eyed cat 19 The Soggy Bottom Boys - Doin My Time 20 The Gospel Plowboys - What A Day That Will Be 21 The Gospel Plowboys - Lord I Want to Go to Heaven 22 A Southern Gospel Revival - Ben Hester - In The Sweet By And By 23 A Southern Gospel Revival - Courtney Patton - Welcome Table 24 A Southern Gospel Revival - Drew Kennedy - Angel Band 25 A Southern Gospel Revival - Jamie Wilson - Ain'...

On the 1st day of Christmas, my MASTER gave to me... A Small Feather Pillow for my knees. On the 2nd day of Christmas, my MASTER gave to me... 2 Nipple Clamps and a Small Feather Pillow for my knees. On the 3rd day of Christmas, my MASTER gave to me... 3 Blindfolds, 2 Nipple Clamps and a Small Feather Pillow for my knees. On the 4th day of Christmas, my MASTER gave to me... 4 Ball Gags, 3 Blindfolds, 2 Nipple Clamps and a Small Feather Pillow for my knees. On the 5th day of Christmas, my MASTER gave to me... FIVE ANAL BEADS, 4 Ball Gags, 3 Blindfolds, 2 Nipple Clamps and a Small Feather Pillow for my knees. On the 6th day of Christmas, my MASTER gave to me... 6 Tubes of KY, FIVE ANAL BEADS,.4 Ball Gags, 3 Blindfolds, 2 Nipple Clamps and a Small Feather Pillow for my knees. On the 7th day of Christmas, my MASTER gave to me... 7 Crops a Swinging, 6 Tubes of KY, FIVE ANAL BEADS, 4 Ball Gags, 3 Blindfolds, 2 Nipple Clamps and a Small Feather Pillow for my knees. On th...

 

4 light streaks in the shot. 2 not as easy to see... Only light in the room was the flash. All but 1 are moving in the same direction. 1 by the fridge is most obvious. Then over the door moving up. Next by the big mug on the cabinets last on the cabinets on the far left...

Oh YouTube so works. HAHAHA...

So if you unlink your Windows 8.1 from Outlook.com and make it local so you don't have to log on, then you can't check you mail any more... Freaking thing wants you to link to outlook right away. And if you do it puts the password back on so you need to log on all the darn time. What I hate is if you leave it alone for 15 min it will hit the lock screen and you have to enter the darn password again. No place to tell it not to do that. The two hacks I found don't work as well. The place in the registry does not exist and the one with the hidden program does nothing as well. Oh well... Maybe I will change the password to F*** Off - so I have the satisfaction of telling it off every time.

When I was in my 20's I just wanted to fight and die. Now I want to live so strongly I can't believe it. I used to say, "I don't want to live forever". Now I do want to. All the people I know where damaged in some way as a child. I almost said yes to my youth pastor when he obviously wanted sex from me. I was I think 12. I just felt so good to be wanted by someone. I did not understand and when I did it fucked up my life (only word strong enough). My folks where to say the least strict at times and being that my Mom was mentally ill I got spanked many times for no reason. But I never blamed them. Even as a child I knew what was going on in that situation. Things changed when my Dad finally realized about Mom. But it kind of tainted how I saw them for ever. But all in all I struggled with it all and my own mental illness. I was strong and I prevailed. Now that I am sick and in pain. I often think time is short. I sometimes wish I would just go out in ...

We are a moment and no more. The world turn to dust in the days to come. Man has lost his place a long time ago. History is gone and soon we all will be as well. The sands of time are at an end. This one moment and no more. One life is not enough. We long for eternity. Yet we can not even perceive it. This last act and then the world is gone. One more task before we fade away. In the end there will be nothing once more. In the beginning there was nothing to start with. It is a moment of time in all of forever. From nothing to nothing. We are a joke that want to be a epic story. Man kind if and was and will be no more. The struggles for power are meaningless. We push the button and burn the oil. We eat the burgers and don't think about it. We pray that we live on and think that it's just now. The moment has almost past. The time of man all but gone. Nothing will know we existed in time. We are a flash. There is flesh and pleasure but once. Live or be lost. For in the end there i...

Have you ever felt empty? I don't mean bored or alone. I mean empty. The kind of dead inside feeling that makes you want to stop living. Well, I have. I was on the edge of giving up and checking out. I did all kinds of things to make the pain inside stop. The number one this was to let others hurt my body. To let them screw me and beat me. I did not know anything but anger for myself. To be angry was so much more easy than to be in pain inside. To be hurting on the outside was to distract from the inside. I also drank to kill the pain inside. To try and run from who I was. I don't think of myself as an addict, as I can just have one beer and be done with it. But then I drank to not know what my mind thought of me. I drove my car very fast in the dark all alone and turned the lights off. I had sex with people I did not know just to try and be... Or feel... I know it's not in fashion these days to talk about a love for God. But this is what changed my world. This is what made...

Latest bit of art (cemetery).   Almost called 911 tonight. Had a spike of pain in my chest and almost went to the floor. But every time I go I get ignored. The have flagged all the people with a history of mental illness here. So we don’t get treated, instead they just think it’s in our heads and pass us over then send us home. It’s happened to me many times. The sad thing is this was on the news and the government admitted to doing it. No one cared at all. They call it “hot spotting”. So I just sit here waiting to die one of these days. I know I won’t get them to take me seriously so I don’t go any more. This is the 3rd time in 2 weeks this has happened. I see the heart doctor on the 14th. It’s to the point that I have given up eating right and instead I am just having what I like now. I stopped giving a shit. I am almost sure I won’t last 5 more years… I intend to enjoy ever last moment of it. Peace - Dave. P.S. Thank you Five Hills Health Regio n for making me ...

Just watched that film of a man being electrocuted to dead from the 1970's. Not only would there be pain, but your mind being ripped apart by the electricity. What must that be like? Even the modern method of using drugs to kill the prisoner is said to have unimaginable pain for a few moments. To face the truth, the most humane way to put someone to death would be a shotgun blast to the head. There would be no time to process any pain, it would just end. But we think this is horrific. Strange how we have to think of how we see the end of their lives as the most important part. That is to say, how we view the end. The actual person is not thought of. Lethal injection came about for those who watch, not those who die. We tell our children that two wrongs don't make a right, then we kill someone for their crime. This makes anyone who believes in capital punishment (in my mind) a hypocrite. There is no way for me to justify it. Many say it is the will of God, but yet God said that...